First and Foremost

If you had no commitments. No restrictions holding you back. If money was no object and no dream was big enough. If you had the chance to do anything tomorrow, what would you do?

I mean really. If you could do anything, tomorrow, with no consequences toward your responsibilities or commitments. What would you change if you had the chance?

We all have dreams. We all make promises to our selves that in six months this will have changed, or that will have. But really, what do we do to actually reach those goals. We, or I certainly am, just living off whims. And it isn't working, because the whim never lasts. I'm so sick of listening to my whims and wasting time and money on phases. It's boring and I'm tired. I can't take any more of this lying to myself. So I have made a decision.

If I don't like something. I have to change it.

I don't like listening to my whims and it leading to nothing, I have two choices.

1. Stop listening to whims.

2. Stop letting them lead to nothing.

The first seems the easier. But what is easy isn't always right. Is it? What sort of boring life would I lead were we not to listen to our whims? We'd be stuck doing the same thing every day, ignoring spontaneity and probably most fun. And lets be honest, we all like to follow a good whim from time to time. And they aren't all bad. Hey, I'm writing this on a whim aren't I?

That only leads to the second. Stop letting the big stuff go.

Okay, you can let the whim to draw a moustache on your sleeping sisters face. You can probably let that go, especially when you've got witnesses and you know you won't live to see the next sunrise as soon as she finds out exactly who violated her face with a permanent marker. But what about the other ones? If we have a sudden notion to do something big, something special, or important, shouldn't we go for it.

And no, I'm not suggesting you go and rob a bank. I can't condone illegal behaviour, in the current climate. I also could never condone someone putting a stocking over their face. Does that even work?
Anyway, back on track. I guess what I'm trying to say in my round about mumbo jumbo is this: why must we dismiss our urges because they're 'unrealistic'.

So you have an urge to go travelling.

So go!

You have commitments?

So do I. Doesn't every one.

You want a tattoo?

Get something that means something to your current state in time. You want a flower because it's summer. I'm not going to judge. It's just a permanent memoir of that summer isn't it. I got mine on a whim. And sure it's scary because it's permanent. But that doesn't mean you have to regret it afterwards, does it?

It doesn't have to be unrealistic, you can make it a little more sensible. Want to go travelling? Take your two weeks holiday and don't waste it. Do what you want and go for it. Come back to work satisfied and start planning what you're going to do next year.

Sorry it keeps coming back to travel, I guess one can't escape their own whims after all.

So if you literally metaphorically had the world at your feet and you could do anything or go any where tomorrow. What would you do?


I'm not going into the 'if today was your last day' and you only had one day. I'm talking about, you have infinite amounts of time and money, even skill if you want to do something you aren't actually trained to do (we'll come back to this with an example later) or, god forbid, something that would change your life and your way of thinking forever.

Would you get a tattoo?
Would you move out?
Would you build something?
Would you change your job?
Go back to school?
Would you travel?

I would. I'd jump in a beat up old wagon (a reliable one obviously), or a motorbike with stack loads of cash and drive. And drive. Or jump on a freight train. To run away. And I wouldn't stop until I felt like I'd found the place, or the person, that I belonged with. Until I'd found home.

And I don't even know how to drive either.

Is it so terrible to wish for something as simple and complicated as that?

It's unrealistic, but not impossible. So I might only be able to do one city or region at a time. So it'll take a little more time that I wanted. Isn't that better than doing nothing at all? Than letting the opportunity to simply pass me by? Not a chance. So I'll have to squeeze things again and it'll be a little rougher than I wanted. Better than staying fine wasting my holiday sat on my laptop trolling the internet.

And this all comes back to inspiration doesn't it. Or lack of. How are we supposed to keep ourselves inspired in order to keep up with all of these dreams. How do we stay inspired enough for our aspirations?

So I'm decided. Enough is enough. It's time to act.